I am mourning the loss of some of my great loves. Some of them are warm and soft and comforting... others are cool and sweet and always cheers me up. Somehow my life seems a little less fun and cravings a lot less manageable now that I have to give up cheese and ice cream. Yes - it's true - I am lactose intolerant. =^( This unexpected turn of events seems doubly cruel since this discovery was made weeks before our big Christmas trip to Italy. Unbelievable.
But Kim, how could this happen? You ask. I don't really know. I can only assume that my gall bladder-less gut is no longer able to process more than just fatty foods now. Don't worry. I can still eat things like pizza and yogurt and MILK Chocolate (SO uncool)... It's not like it sends me into anaphylactyc shock or anything. But I definitely pay for it later.
Over the last few months I've had a lot of discomfort and pain as a result of eating. They told me it would take a while to get back to feeling normal again after having my operation, but after a year and a half you'd think I'd be able to eat something simple like breakfast cereal without feeling like a bloated pincushion.
As it grew worse and worse this fall, I began to suspect a food allergy. So right before our trip to Tokyo I decided to experiment and completely cut out dairy, gluten and sugar and slowly I did start to feel better. I also noticed that, although I hadn't altered the
amount of food or how much I was exercising, only the type of foods I was eating, I lost three pounds in three days and my belly flattened out significantly. That got my attention, for sure.
I went to the doctor who ran some tests and thankfully ruled out some more serious possible causes like ulcers and pancreatic stones. He says its possible that I've got some scar tissue in my side near where they took my gall bladder out that may be causing me some pain. But there's not much they can do about that. Over all, though, through various food experiments we've come to the conclusion that gluten and sugar, in moderation, don't hurt me nearly as much as dairy. After avoiding the stuff for a few weeks I decided to treat myself to a birthday sundae from Baskin Robbins and - well - let's just say it was pretty clear that ice cream will be a major no-no from now on. =^(
So, I suppose we are now beginning yet another stage in my food journey as I once again retrain my brain and learn to live without some of my favorite foods. It's not too bad when I'm at home cooking for myself. But traveling will be more difficult now and I need to work on my self-control a bit more. Thankfully they make some pills that help people like me break down lactose so I can still sample some of the local fare while we're in Italy.
I think the real challenge over the next few months will be trying to rectify my relationship with food. Working from home is really hard on me when it comes to diet control because I am definitely the type who eats when I'm bored or lonely or stressed out. Most of my comfort foods are now off limits so I've got to adapt and grow and strengthen my self-control. I also need to learn to take some of my own advice and go to God to help fill me up first and foremost. Prayers are much appreciated.